Our 6th Wedding Anniversary

Ryan and I celebrated six years married, twelve years together on Sunday.

To be brutally honest, the last couple years have been hard on us. Really hard.

We took the time this past weekend to pull out our ceremony, vows and photos. Looking back on it all and re-reading our promises to one another was powerful. It’s like we knew we’d be sitting over a dinner table one day, celebrating our anniversary, yet feeling this heart breaking distance and disconnection between one another.

We knew times would get hard. We promised to work through those times together. We knew it wasn’t going to be easy. We committed to never giving up. We knew our love was stronger than any obstacle that would come our way...

Well, here we are - six years later - and those obstacles are here now. We’re currently in the thick of it. Working through the challenges of doing deep inner work. Healing the child within ourselves. Breaking the cycle of generational trauma. All while running on little to no sleep, raising our babies, and navigating the daily grind.

We left dinner holding hands, and for the first time in a while, the embrace didn’t feel forced or empty. That tension-filled space between us had faded. 4 Non Blondes’ What’s Up came on the radio on our way home. We belted it out together...

Windows down, sunroof open, hot summer air whipping through the car, empty car-seats in the back... that feeling of happiness, freedom, and comfort... where you just want to keep driving off together forever. We looked at one another before pulling into the driveway... we knew once we walked inside to greet Ayla and Silas, we’d be stepping into the dreaded bedtime saga that is a determined toddler and a teething 9 month old.

We took a moment to note how different our marriage would be if we started making the time for date nights more often.

And so, here we are. Learning to prioritize what’s truly important. Learning to stop letting life just happen to us, and to start choosing the life we dream of instead. We are committing to being our best selves for one another... and to loving and supporting each other as we work through these tough times.

Happy sixth anniversary, Ryan.

I love you 💛