Adorning myself with the crown of "Mother"

I spent the first six years of motherhood trying to fight my way back to my maiden self…
I longed to be the girl who could wake up in the morning and only worry about her own needs
The girl who ate food while it was hot and enjoyed a warm cup of tea listening only to the sound of silence

I spent years in resistance, trying to claw my way back to her
Desperate for a break
Desparate for a little freedom
Desparate for some peace and quiet

I’d book weekend trips with my girlfriends swimming naked in waterfalls only to come back home longing for another escape again
I hadn’t yet learned the art of surrendering
I hadn’t let go of doing it all and being it all for them

When my third babe was growing inside me, she came along and whispered,
This is it, my love
You can’t escape your motherhood
You can’t hide from the mess of it all
You can’t run away from how excruciatingly hard this is

And herein lies your work:

Can you find peace amidst the chaos that surrounds you?
Can you learn to honor your needs alongside theirs?
Can you muster up the strength to look deep within yourself and tend to the parts of you that need healing?

And so I finally did it…
I dug deep
I learned to befriend my inner child and tend to my wounds

And by freeing myself from the pain,
I welcomed my joy back
I welcomed my peace back

I’m now riding the wave of motherhood with a smile on my face

I’ve adorned myself with the crown of “mother” and there’s nowhere else I’d rather be.