Adorning myself with the crown of "Mother"

Adorning myself with the crown of "Mother"

I spent the first six years of motherhood trying to fight my way back to my maiden self…
I longed to be the girl who could wake up in the morning and only worry about her own needs
The girl who ate food while it was hot and enjoyed a warm cup of tea listening only to the sound of silence
I spent years in resistance, trying to claw my way back to her
Desperate for a break
Desparate for a little freedom
Desparate for some peace and quiet…

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The home birth of Silas William

The home birth of Silas William

Early labor contractions started early Monday morning. They weren’t painful at all, but were continually coming every 3-5min, and were a little more tight and crampy than the usual Braxton Hicks I had been having.

My mom came to hang with Ayla while I went to visit my midwife that morning. We decided to do my first cervical check to get a baseline. I was 1cm dilated & 80% effaced. We talked about how these early labor contractions could go on for days and the importance of making sure I stay rested, hydrated, and well nourished.

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